Life Update!
You I just wanted to touch base with you all and give you a bit of an update on how things are going right now!
I guess I'll start off by saying everything is pretty much good at the moment. My anxiety is not nearly as bad as its been the past couple of months and I don't really know why? Not much has changed pretty much everything is still the same but yet I've been feeling better! My anxiety tends to hit me in waves and every so often there is a shit storm. I'm lucky that I have such amazing and supportive people that help me ride it out!
I have been doing a lot of soul searching, yeno sitting down thinking about my dreams and aspirations in life! I have so many, god I can't even tell you all the things I hope to achieve in my life. I want to improve my life so I can improve the boys life's! I have stopped comparing myself to other mommys, other bloggers, other makeup artists and other girls. Maybe this is one of the reasons my anxiety has been at bay! I've accepted I am ME. I am not perfect, I have my bad moments even days, I lose my patience and I cry. I am only human at the end of the day and the only person who was putting pressure on me, was me!
It is only now that I have figured out what I want to do with my life. When I look back at the 17 year old me who being forced to choose a career in school, I had no idea! I had no idea what I wanted to do in life. Maths, science, irish, french, history, accountancy, english. I liked them, I didn't love them art and music now they excited me! Even though I only took up music half way through 5th year I fell in love with the subject and ended up earning my highest honour in my leaving cert with it! Which is kind of mind blowing when you think about it. I didn't spend years and years studying it like my other subjects. I had a passion and talent for it so it came naturally to me!
I have always been a creative person turning to writing, sketching/drawing and singing as outlets while I grew up! When I was stressed I would sing as loud as I could when I was sad I would sit and sketch something to take my mind of things and writing happened when I was happy or sad. I loved to write poems, mini story's and keep a diary. Its only now at almost 24 years of age that I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life!
As I said guys life is good the boys are doing great! Cailan is such an amazing big brother. He is overwhelmingly helpful when it comes to any matter relating Dylan whether its cheering him up when hes whinging or helping with the nappy changes he wants to do it all! Nothing makes him happier then seeing Dylan smile. Dylan is finally at that stage where hes interacting! So when you do something funny he'll laugh or even try to mimic you! When you say no, no, no and shake your head he will shake his head too but he will do it with the biggest gummy smile that would melt your heart. Cailan makes Dylan laugh so hard and vice versa! Dylan knows how to make Cai laugh too! I can only imagine what these two are going to be like when they are older! They both adore each other!
One big change that has happened in our house is that Dylan is finally in his own room and is sleeping nights!! Like this is major news, I should of totally said this first its how major it is right now! Myself and Lee really don't know ourselves at the moment. Both boys go down at 7, Dylan wakes at 11/12 for a bottle and there both up at 7! Like we can't ask for better then that? Its so nice to have our nights back together again. Its nice to be able to just sit and chill out on the sofa with Lee and watch a movie or catch up on some tv! Don't get me wrong I love the boys but after a hard, long day its nice to be actually able to unwind now. Even if it means having an early one we can do that now! Haha.
Today has also marked a change in my life. I have been saying it for weeks that I want to start cutting all the bad food out of my diet! Doing it all at once is impossible I know this because I have tried and failed miserably! Haha. So I have decided to do the 30 day no sugar challenge. Hopfully after the 30 days I wont crave any sort of sugary foods, that's what I'm hoping anyways :D After I cut the sugar I'm hoping to cut bread out but as I said I'm just going to work on one thing at a time! I will keep you updated as too how I get on but so far Day 1 has been easy. I say easy because its only been the first one. I still have 29 to go... This should be interesting!
I think I've covered pretty much everything for the moment. Hope you are keeping well and I'll catch you in the next one :)
I guess I'll start off by saying everything is pretty much good at the moment. My anxiety is not nearly as bad as its been the past couple of months and I don't really know why? Not much has changed pretty much everything is still the same but yet I've been feeling better! My anxiety tends to hit me in waves and every so often there is a shit storm. I'm lucky that I have such amazing and supportive people that help me ride it out!
I have been doing a lot of soul searching, yeno sitting down thinking about my dreams and aspirations in life! I have so many, god I can't even tell you all the things I hope to achieve in my life. I want to improve my life so I can improve the boys life's! I have stopped comparing myself to other mommys, other bloggers, other makeup artists and other girls. Maybe this is one of the reasons my anxiety has been at bay! I've accepted I am ME. I am not perfect, I have my bad moments even days, I lose my patience and I cry. I am only human at the end of the day and the only person who was putting pressure on me, was me!
It is only now that I have figured out what I want to do with my life. When I look back at the 17 year old me who being forced to choose a career in school, I had no idea! I had no idea what I wanted to do in life. Maths, science, irish, french, history, accountancy, english. I liked them, I didn't love them art and music now they excited me! Even though I only took up music half way through 5th year I fell in love with the subject and ended up earning my highest honour in my leaving cert with it! Which is kind of mind blowing when you think about it. I didn't spend years and years studying it like my other subjects. I had a passion and talent for it so it came naturally to me!
I have always been a creative person turning to writing, sketching/drawing and singing as outlets while I grew up! When I was stressed I would sing as loud as I could when I was sad I would sit and sketch something to take my mind of things and writing happened when I was happy or sad. I loved to write poems, mini story's and keep a diary. Its only now at almost 24 years of age that I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life!
As I said guys life is good the boys are doing great! Cailan is such an amazing big brother. He is overwhelmingly helpful when it comes to any matter relating Dylan whether its cheering him up when hes whinging or helping with the nappy changes he wants to do it all! Nothing makes him happier then seeing Dylan smile. Dylan is finally at that stage where hes interacting! So when you do something funny he'll laugh or even try to mimic you! When you say no, no, no and shake your head he will shake his head too but he will do it with the biggest gummy smile that would melt your heart. Cailan makes Dylan laugh so hard and vice versa! Dylan knows how to make Cai laugh too! I can only imagine what these two are going to be like when they are older! They both adore each other!
One big change that has happened in our house is that Dylan is finally in his own room and is sleeping nights!! Like this is major news, I should of totally said this first its how major it is right now! Myself and Lee really don't know ourselves at the moment. Both boys go down at 7, Dylan wakes at 11/12 for a bottle and there both up at 7! Like we can't ask for better then that? Its so nice to have our nights back together again. Its nice to be able to just sit and chill out on the sofa with Lee and watch a movie or catch up on some tv! Don't get me wrong I love the boys but after a hard, long day its nice to be actually able to unwind now. Even if it means having an early one we can do that now! Haha.
Today has also marked a change in my life. I have been saying it for weeks that I want to start cutting all the bad food out of my diet! Doing it all at once is impossible I know this because I have tried and failed miserably! Haha. So I have decided to do the 30 day no sugar challenge. Hopfully after the 30 days I wont crave any sort of sugary foods, that's what I'm hoping anyways :D After I cut the sugar I'm hoping to cut bread out but as I said I'm just going to work on one thing at a time! I will keep you updated as too how I get on but so far Day 1 has been easy. I say easy because its only been the first one. I still have 29 to go... This should be interesting!
I think I've covered pretty much everything for the moment. Hope you are keeping well and I'll catch you in the next one :)
Until next time,
Lisa.
x
Great post lisa, gland to hear your anxiety is a bay. Im also thinking of cutting sugar out of my diet, dont think it will go well though haha.
ReplyDeleteAwh Lisa this was such a cute read about the boys! I'm so glad your anxiety is in check, all we gotta do is take it one day at a time! x
ReplyDeleteYes you are YOU and wonderful thing to be. Glad you are getting a hold on your anxiety. It's a bitch to handle.
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